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A New Year, Another Day.

Zan — Sun, 03 Jan 2010 16:49:37 +0000

it’s a new year and I hope it’s a better one. I would give anything to forget 2009, the worst year of my life. most of my whole life sucked, not every year but most of them. this was the worst most horrible year of my whole life with barely any good in it.

the bad always out weights the good, how horrible is that, leave no room for hope or faith. I’ve got to be the most faithless person I know. I got a pain in the ass friend who’s always pissing me off and getting on my nerves but she is full of faith. how dose she do that? and why can’t I find it?

I want a better year and a better life. how do I get that to happen without leaving everyone behind?

Happy New Year!!!

Zan — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 17:02:11 +0000

Happy New Year Everybody!!!

I had to babysit last night and i desided to throw a small party for my sisters and there friend, we had fun at first then everyone wanted to sit on facebook. then haliey got mad got mad becaues her mom changed her facebook password so she spend the rest of the night locked in my sisters room tell after midnight.

what a way to start of the new year but having to go to work and it sucked, full house. we where there all day. blah!

Crazy pshyco BI$%CH

Zan — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 22:33:13 +0000

I have a friend I’ve known forever and I know she has issues, she thinks she is b- polar, well I belive her now, I was talking to her normally .. “hi, what you doing” and out of no where she’s yelling at me to leave her alone, never talk to her again, I am not a real friend. All i said was “I was watching TV”

Now she deleted me and my sisters off of Facebook and my phone number and is telling every what a bitch I am.I know she has problems who doesn’t, but every time someone does something to her she yells at me and makes it my fault.

last year a guy we know stole her iPod, well last week she let this guy come over again and he stole her dsi, and she mad at me because this happened … like WTF!!! I wasnt even there, I didnt’ let him in the door, how is this my fault, I told her “don’t ever let him in your place again”

She gets mad at me when I ask for gas money, she wants me to drive her everywhere for FREE, like my car runs of hopes and dreams.

I put up a lot from her and she has even admitted it once that she gets mad at me for nothing but I am always her friend. so I why dose she keep doing this to me.

She drives me crazy!!!

Getting Cold Outside….

Zan — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 05:22:05 +0000

Winters coming soon, winds picking up and the colds rolling in. normally I don’t mind winter very much, hanging in the house with the family, but this year things are different, important member of the family has to spend the winter living outside. It’s my dog Piper, I know that dogs can live outside but it’s different for her, she’s lived in the house for the past three years of her life and now our new landlord is making her live outside.

I have been sleeping outside with her in a tent, it keeps her quite if she’s has someone with her and well I am use to sharing my bed with her. Since we’ve moved I haven’t slept much at all. Now it’s getting cold out and our little tent isn’t enough anymore to stay warm, she hasn’t had time to grow a winter coat yet. I don’t know what to do, I’ve been looking at sheds, campers even fish houses but I can’t afford anything.

Not really sure what I should do at this point, everyone thinks I should move back into the house at night and let the dog deal with it, but she hasn’t had any time to get use to it and I am afraid she won’t make it thru the winter and I don’t know what to do. For some people a dog is more than just a dog, their family, a friend or the only one who is really misses you when you’re gone.

It’s been a long time…

Zan — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 21:11:12 +0000

Haven’t been here in a long time and thing have gone from bad to worse to kill me now and back. Since the last time I was here not too much his changed I am still working the job at the hotel, still trapped at home. The good thing is that I finally started college, ya I know about time. We have moved to a piece of crap house, the dam thing looks like it will fall down if you sneeze. All in all my life still sucks.

I hoping to get a part time job for the month with a friend at the trail or terror, when there last year with the family it was fun, so looking to get a job there. I am in my first quarter college and so far so good. I am a little scared about future classes, like college algebra, Makes my nauseous just thinking about it.

Tell I write, later

Where am I?

Zan — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 20:47:30 +0000

I was watching this video on youtube (link at bottom) from Cory Williams aka Mr. Safety and he was talking about where he was going in life and it got my thinking, where am I?

I am turning 24 in may and I am not in college, I am not dating anyone right now, my job sucks, I don’t have my own place right now ether and I don’t have very many real friends. I have friends but all of them I just don’t like to hang out with doing the things they want to do, like drugs and serious drinking. I do drink now and then but I know my limits.

As for my sucky job, I need a new one, I know that but I don’t want to work a dead ended day for a Douche bag. So I looking into starting my own small business, something descent.

I wonder now if this works out like I am hopeing, Where will I be a year from now?

Check him out on YouTube!

Cory Williams aka Mr. Safety: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5mFwYdq5QFE

Jan 21, 2008

Zan — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 06:22:38 +0000

so I have to go to work tomorrow and i’ve already been infromed that it’s gonna suck. I am all by myself tomorrow which bores the heck out of me and no one can come in and help. My boss won’t hire anyone new for aleast another month or two. the last girl quit after three weeks and the other can only work crent days of the week. Now I know I don’t want to go in but I have to, I am the only one who can.

Jan 20, 2008

Zan — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 05:27:45 +0000

I havent’ felt much like writing lately and when I don’t just make myself do anything I put if off for quite awhile. so here I am making myself vent.

I’ve been taking a look at my life so far and I found I am feeling a little lost… I guess, kind of like I am not going anywhere and definitely not where I want to be at 23.

In the last month alone three girls I know under 22 have just had babies, well I know that’s something I am not ready for yet. I want a good foundation first before starting a family, not I am not where near that ether.

What I really want most of all right now is to travel, road trip. but I don’t the money for that or a car, which sucks. This summer my friend Connie is going and a trip to Mexico with her church group and she’s going to Tennessee with her dad. pisses me off cause I can’t just drop everything like she can and just go place all the time like she can. She has no responsibilities.

Christmas Eve

Zan — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 20:28:55 +0000

It’s really doesn’t fell like Christmas, feels like every other day for me, the only different for me is I’ll be seeing my family tomorrow, so other then that, I’ve got nothing going on. I know i am not getting much, doesn’t really bother me, but like i said before gift are optional for me.

we had are work party the other night, had to give secret Santa gifts, i gave my person a wine glass holder and got a tin of mini candy bars and a candle. Why does every one give candles and body spray as gifts.

I plan on getting a new cell phone and a Linkin Park Hoodie when i get paid friday. Just a little gift for myself. I had to work today, it wasn’t that bad. Easy day, just boring.

Got a couple bunnies about a week ago, two boys, I don’t remeber what kind they are.

Linkin

Jack Sparrow

(I did not name him)

Dec 13, 07

Zan — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 05:17:50 +0000

So it’s been awhile since Ive posted, so I thought I’d stop in. Not much has been happening, it’s been really busy at the hotel. today we had 30 rooms between two of us to clean. it’s a small town hotel, there’s like 48 rooms all together, I think. It was suppose to be only me but they found someone to help me out.

Christmas is coming I really haven’t gotten round to shopping yet, I hate Christmas shopping so much. I feel gifts are optional.

I get paid tomorrow, which I’m usely happy when two week have finally passed so I can get my check, but i got called off a couple time so I know it’s not going to decent.

I decided to Canceled the Xbox and go with a PlayStation 3 instead, no secnce on changing systems now, I have enough older ones laying around.

In case I don’t get around to it later, Happy Holidays Everyone!